Scottyskiied
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- Sep 24, 2023
Before we get into my rant (more pics coming tomorrow) I would just like to say how incredibly proud I am of Autumn Tabor !! This year marks 11 YEARS that she has happily been coming back to the University of Iowa for the JHD research study. Get it girl!! When I was thinking about it today...that's almost 3/4 of her life that she has been involved in observational research for HD/JHD!
As I was looking through photos to make this celebratory collage honoring 11 years that Autumn has been participating in research I went down... sort of a depressing rabbit hole? I found the photos I needed for the collage, but...I also found myself turning the volume all the way down on my phone (this is not the first time) just in case an old video accidentally started playing while I was scrolling through. And not because I'm trying to be quiet, it's because hearing Autumn's "old" voice or being reminded of something she could do just 1 year ago or 5 years ago - that she can no longer do... Memories are SO INCREDIBLY PAINFUL!!! It seems like more and more social media sites are adding "memories" to it's users features. TikTok just started doing this too. Google Photos even puts together cool things like "then & now" made from your photos but... for me - when these notifications come up I immediately dismiss them because I don't want to be reminded of how much things have changed. Idk, I guess this is my way of coping.
While other parents watch their kids grow up, we are witnessing the devastating opposite. FU(K Juvenile Huntington's Disease!!! I try my best to (and for the most part succeed) stay positive, but while Autumn and I share a whole lot of laughs, love, smiles with all of you - it's not all sunshine and rainbows for our family. In fact, it feels like everyday is an unpredictable thunderstorm and I am trying my best to hold onto the umbrella, but I know that together our family will weather the storm.
#JuvenileHuntingtonsDisease #HuntingtonsDisease #jhdawareness #jhdwarrior
As I was looking through photos to make this celebratory collage honoring 11 years that Autumn has been participating in research I went down... sort of a depressing rabbit hole? I found the photos I needed for the collage, but...I also found myself turning the volume all the way down on my phone (this is not the first time) just in case an old video accidentally started playing while I was scrolling through. And not because I'm trying to be quiet, it's because hearing Autumn's "old" voice or being reminded of something she could do just 1 year ago or 5 years ago - that she can no longer do... Memories are SO INCREDIBLY PAINFUL!!! It seems like more and more social media sites are adding "memories" to it's users features. TikTok just started doing this too. Google Photos even puts together cool things like "then & now" made from your photos but... for me - when these notifications come up I immediately dismiss them because I don't want to be reminded of how much things have changed. Idk, I guess this is my way of coping.
While other parents watch their kids grow up, we are witnessing the devastating opposite. FU(K Juvenile Huntington's Disease!!! I try my best to (and for the most part succeed) stay positive, but while Autumn and I share a whole lot of laughs, love, smiles with all of you - it's not all sunshine and rainbows for our family. In fact, it feels like everyday is an unpredictable thunderstorm and I am trying my best to hold onto the umbrella, but I know that together our family will weather the storm.
#JuvenileHuntingtonsDisease #HuntingtonsDisease #jhdawareness #jhdwarrior